i watch funny shows on netflix and follow humor blogs on tumblr, and only tweet witty things because i am desperately looking for something to make me smile to mask the fact that i am deeply, deeply depressed. everything about my life is in stark contrast to what i want for myself, and i can’t find happiness in my current situation. so i daily crawl to the comforting glow of my computer, knowing that within it i can find something to make me forget that darkness that sits firmly inside my chest, unmoving. and no one can know. for fear of judgment or pity or just the unknown, i won’t share with anyone my feelings. so i start another series, i reblog another post, and i retweet that. but offline, i’m fading away.