I know I shouldn’t envy people…And I know I shouldn’t envy someone close to me like my younger sister. She’s so much pretty and so much smarter than my older and sister and I combined. Well, except the smart part. They’re both smarter than me. From time to time, I try and start to learn and love myself. But the littlest things take over and I’m back to square one. Like today. We were out over a friend’s house, and one of the aunt’s said to my sister, “Oh my gosh, _______, your eyes look so pretty today. You look so pretty. I’m jealous.” And then I ignored everyone after that. Didnt talk to anyone and I kept to myself. Ive told myself so many times that I HAVE to stop caring what others think/say so I don’t put myself down. *sigh* It’s situations like these that can’t make me wait for the future and move out so I can finally be happy. I just want to run away from home and disappear forever. But I’m not gonna give up. Im gonna keep trying to keep myself stable and happy. Cheer me on, people. 🙂 I feel better now getting this all off my chest.