I am lonely, 20, never had a girlfriend with gynecomastia. I have gained over 4 stone over 2 years due to my depression. The weight gain has also brought my confidence down. I have tried going to the gym, and losing weight; which I did, but still back to square one. I have just lost the will to exist. I also think about how I will just a alone.

I am currently studying an integrated masters degree. My grades have just dropped over these last 6 months. I have just lost all interest in my major, I also think about how in 5 years time I would be working just to survive. I just want someone to just kill me quickly without any pain. I have ODed before, but I am still here. I don’t even have the balls to do it myself. Then I also feel selfish to my parents and friends if I do go. I would happily give my life to someone I have never met as I was brought up in a home were my parents are medical practitioners. I just can’t find anything worth living for anymore.

Maybe in 2 years time you may hear of my death, just wanted someone to just here why I have decided to go.