sometime i dont know whether i am in desperate need of people’s attention and cares or I am in love cause I fell easily for this ugly guy which look alike the other one I met in the bus. What the reality told me is he hates me. Whenever i stared at him casually, he usually gave me that get-the f-out of my sight-look with disgusted frowned tiny eyes.
I fought with my feelings hard like endlessly, and sometimes I had an urge wanna kill myself with a gun. But I dont wanna die for this person who doesnt care about me. I still think that I maybe very in need of care and love and so I lower my standard for this kind of guy n then he maybe approach me.But I still think I deserve better.