it took me so very long to get over you the first time, we couldn’t speak for years because i found it so hard getting over you, it was a mutual split, we were both so young and so overwhelmed with life changes, it doesn’t mean it didn’t hurt but I wouldn’t have wanted to go back and change it. I am a complete basketcase in relationships, I never feel as much for the other person as they do for me and it eats me away inside, I’m quite eccentric in truth and find it really hard to relate to people and that frustrates me…but you, oh you were different, you made me feel whole and beautiful, you never judged my odd behavior and you were as understanding as possible…I have never looked forward to seeing a single human as much as I did/I do with you. We’re friends now, but the spark is still there for me, you do the most humbling and thoughtful things for me and I feel like torn when I’m with you, half of me cherishes these moments but a little part of me, the reasonable part, thinks this situation is bad for both of us. I don’t know where I stand or if you do feel the same, I can’t get drunk when I’m with you in case all this splurges out or I kiss you, I want so very much to kiss you but if this ends badly, if we ended up trying again and it failed there would be another period of time where i’d have to cut you out so I had the time to heal myself, I can’t see my life without you in it in some shape or form, I’d rather have you as a friend if nothing more </3