I am AEGOSEXUAL, meaning I have no desire for s** with real people, but I like romance novels, p*** and fantasy scenarios, I do like to m********* once in a while, on my own terms, but the notion of including another person makes me feel disgusted and very turned off. No one fully knows this, because I don’t want to deal with judgements or questions. My partner accepts that I’m asexual, and believes I have no s** drive or interest at all, my family and friends don’t know because I know they’d think I’m broken or that I’m being unfair to my partner being in a relationship where he doesn’t get s**. Even I wonder sometimes, because romantic love in adults is generally shown as s*****, and a lack of s** is made to seem this horrible, unfair tragedy, but this is my best life. Emotional attachment and support, with no s***** engagement. And my partner is still here, despite having every chance to leave, so it must be working for him too. I am not broken or wrong, I am who I am, and that is ok. It feels really nice to have finally shared it.