I’m honestly not saying this just to get attention or for you to feel sorry for me (what would it matter, anyways, I’m invisible to you). I’ve been struggling with depression for about 4 years now. It’s gotten so much worse. It isn’t necessarily that I want to kill myself.. I just don’t want to exist anymore. I have no motivation to do anything. Which really f****** s**** because I’m a perfectionist and my parents would kick me out if I got anything less than an A (I’m 20 btw). I literally do not have any friends, my parents tell me I’m a lazy p************ all the time, and my boyfriend’s a cheating scumbag.

I just want a reason. I’m sick of having to drag myself out of bed every day because I’d rather just let myself lay there forever and fade out of existence. It’s come to the point where even physically moving is too much for me, and I don’t think I can live like this any longer.

Help..?