This woman I know reminds me (in every way) of a woman I used to know and we hated each other. I mean every way inside and out even the sound of her voice. They could be cousins. It’s uncanny.

And it’s hard for me to shake that. I mean I hated this woman. HATED her top 5 most hated women I have ever met. I known this other woman is not her but I just can’t shake the feelings of distaste. It’s like eating something, getting sick and vomiting, and never being able to eat it again. That’s the way I see it. That really is just the way it is. I can’t shake it. It’s difficult for me to even be polite. I just avoid conpletely. I try to.

Not just looks, IN EVERY WAY.

So I was just sitting there talking to this other woman we both know the other day. Somehow we got on the topic of things I mentioned I don’t get involved with things at work. Especially here. MAYBE if the woman is right for me, which is a long shot. That’s a needle in a haystack especially in this time. I might consider. With this scheming look on her face she goes “Well what about *****?…” I immediately shot the idea down, no, and I made it clear why. First of all, I do need t get mixed up with women at work, she is also not my type. In any way. IN ANY WAY, and secondly, she is the spitting image of a woman I knew and worked with, we HATED each other. No. I am not interested.

She the devious look taxes and she says “well that’s not fair to her…” All I said was “I know, but I can’t shake that”

Really though, life isn’t always fair, it rarely is. Secondly, I don’t really care if it’s fair or not, it isn’t fair if I need to be with a woman I don’t want to be with. It amazes me how some people are completely indiscriminate in who they get with. They just get with them???. Just do it. I’m just t picky, and they expect others to do the same. No. It doesn’t work that way for me. I need to be completely attracted to a woman, COMPLETELY, looks and personality, which doesn’t mean I want a perfect super model of whatever, I just need to be attracted to her. Same goes for personality. It just amazes me how some people think of romantic relationships and getting together. Standards are a thing. I am exceptionally picky though. I have had a lot of bad experiences. I definitely would not get with a woman who is the spitting image of a woman I hated. That’s for sure. It just wouldn’t work. You know what I mean by it. The other thing is they look at it like I am single and available, they don’t realize it’s choice. I literally need to beat the women off me who I DO consider attractive in quite a few ways, daily. I have options, many options that are right for me, even if I don’t take them. I would not choose her over one of them. No f****** way.