I am the only child to my parents who have struggled really hard to feed me. They’ve done all in their power to make me happy. I belong to a simple, orthodox family. My parents are proud of me. However, I’ve cheated them. I am 24 years old (single) and I had s** with a prostitute about a month ago which was my first time. It is something that would doom my parent’s lives if they come to know of it. I knew this, and yet I did it. I had this desperation that I could not control. Now I feel terribly guilty. I feel as if I’ve betrayed whatever my parents had taught me. I feel characterless and terribly ashamed of myself. I am not able to look into my own eyes when I face the mirror. And I fear to get caught someday. For one month the fear of getting caught along with the continuous sense of guilt has made my life miserable.