I’m terribly sad. My mother is cruel and manipulative. My father is a weak and silly man. My brother is a completely moronic redneck. And the youngest brother is ok for now, but I’m afraid he’ll end up like the rest. I just transferred to this school. I have no friends because I am afraid to talk to anyone. My best friend of 8 years and I stopped talking a year ago and I’m still. f******. dealing with it. I’m constantly hurt by little things, and I don’t know how to handle it because I know it’s a me thing. I don’t have enough people in my life and so every little slight gets amplified. So how do I hold onto the people I do have? I can’t feel love. I think I would love my boyfriend if I could just love anything, but I can’t. I’m gaining weight, and having never been the fat kid (which I’m not yet, I’m still relatively in normal range) I cannot handle these extra pounds I’ve put on and yet I can’t even get myself out of my dorm to go for a jog because the prospect of it just depresses me. I hate my mother. I hate her. I hate her so much, I really wish she would just die on one of her business trips, and I think I really mean that. My dad is pathetic. I hate my family.