I have been single my whole life, in my thirties now. On good days I am independent, on bad days I want to end it. My friends don’t really know, I laugh and say yeah I been on dates and had my first kiss behind the school gym. Really I wouldn’t know the first thing about guys. I am terrified of them because I was s******* assaulted when I was a kid. People just say, oh you just need confidence! Well ain’t that pretty? Its not like the movies! You cant put on some heels and magically gain it. I need help. I need someone that will see me completely. Someone who doesn’t play games in this society that says game-playing is just how dating is.