Suicide seems like paradise to me right now. I can’t f****** take being in constant pain for much longer. Nothing we’re trying is helping. Everything from my waist down is constantly in a state of spasm. The only position that I get any relief from THAT in is lying down on my back, where my upper back problems and misaligned shoulders get sore after about 10 seconds. Anxiety is ruining my social skills and self esteem and no one seems to notice how secluded I’ve become. I’m behind in all of my classes. Very behind. I’m failing one, soon to be two, which is also probably soon to be three. It just keeps s********** and s********** and everyone still seems to think that I can catch up all of my classes if I ‘really put some effort in’ but there’s no way…I’m missing about 25(ish) assignments from all of my classes put together and somehow they think I can finish it all and keep up with everything else without blowing my brains out in 2 months.
