i had my first realtionship which lasted almost 6 months but it never went anywhere. we were best friends before and basically stayed that way when it started. he would never touch me like put his arm round me, never texted me first making me feel like he didnt care, he never even kissed me. for most of our relationship i doubted it. i knew i shouldve broke it off with him sooner telling him it wasnt working out. i just told him finally that i had a lot on my plate to have this relationship which he did accept and we are friends now but awarkness is there. i feel like that im not gonna have the relationship that i thought will happen and im scared to admit the fear of committing just from one relationship that didnt go to plan to future ones