I’m tired of being made to feel guilty for being a s***** creature and finding men attractive. “Ooh in your history I saw weird (p*** actually) stuff! Ooh ooh ooh why are you looking at that?” Or the other priceless gem when I casually and offhandedly admit a guy (say on tv)is hot. “You’re weird!” I am a virgin. Still am. I dont mean those loophole “lol only had a*** or oral” virgins but a pristine complete 100% virgin. My body is so pure I probably piss holy water.

Jokes aside I am so pure on a physical level I have never kissed before. I have never touched anyone in a s***** way whatsoever. Hell I have never even hugged a man other than my dad by choice. I probably hugged a non-family member male once in my lifetime. Once and he forced it on me. That is how pure I am. The people calling me weird, perverted, etc? They have had s**. They brag about it in secret online and talk so dirty I am shocked because irl they act so innocent. I know for a fact none of them are virgins and one actually got caught having s** and was dragged out of the bedroom by her mother.

So there you have it. All these people having s** and fooling around. Actually doing the things I read and watch and I’m the pervert. I’m the dirty one. So apparently I have to live a lie and pretend I dont find men attractive meanwhile it is A-OK for a guy to see a hot girl and comment on it. Delicious.

As if thats not enough I cant like women either. Even though I dont want to sleep with a woman and dont feel that way towards them I cant admit “hey she looks cute” either because OH MY GOD NO YOU ARE SO WEIRD YOU BULL RAGING DIKE W****. I cant admire Bayonetta’s perfectly shaped a** that could distract anyone (google it) because oh my god you lesbian sinner b****!

I am so done. So f****** tired of it. I have at the same time oddly enough been told I’m pure. I’m innocent. I dont know. I’m the little lollypop gum drops girl. Wth right?

I think the people around me threw this innocent image onto me and when they snoop through my s*** or I say an innocent casual “oh he’s cute” they blow their shits. Like how dare I not have a 8 year old “yuck boys” mentality.

Why write all this? I’m on my period and I cant admire pictures of hot guys without feeling pangs of guilt because of those hypocritical c*** sucking but oh I am so innocent ew ew ew fuckers.

F*** you people for damaging me this way. F*** you sideways with a large chocolate d***.