I like to get drunk because it makes me numb. When I’m sober, I have to deal with all the debt i’m in, the things i’ve done that no one knows about, and the knowledge that the dreams I set out to achieve when I was young are never going to happen. I think about doing harder drugs all the time because of the escape they offer. I know that if i stay on this road, it will lead to me loosing everything and probably becoming homeless, but somehow I just don’t care. I feel like that is what i deserve.