My uncle taught me about p*** and taught me how to j*******. He showed me p*** where two boys were best friends and jerked off and it made me feel ok about him jerking me off to show me. It was kind of cool to me back then tbh and we did a lot of stuff after that. But now as an adult I feel ashamed and guilty all the time. Like someone can read my thoughts and I try to hide it even happened but I feel like everyone knows when they see me because I feel so judged by their looks. I hate going out in public.