I was being very unclean in a sense of s******** and I’m afraid I hurt the person I love the most. Even though thi uncleanliness was an act with them…we both needed to stay strong. And while they were blinded while I knew better. I did what I did. Just to make them happy. And I feel terrible. I can’t stop thinking about everything I said to them, did to them. They say they love me, but I just keep thinking that they say that to spare my feelings of rejection </3