I can’t stand my life situation. I have issues with the heat where I get headaches and I can’t get hydrated and I feel like s***. Like I would normally be trying to workout, or play a game, or read but I can’t do these things because it’s like my brain just doesn’t function right and if I keep pushing it in the heat, I get burnt out and I can’t think right for like a day or more.

It’s like I can sit here, and attempt to entertain myself, and that is about it. I can’t do anything productive because it heats things up and then I’m even more screwed.

So, since my brain is kind of out of the picture, I can’t do a lot of things, so I end up being bored and f*** and just watching p***.

But then, I end up hurting myself.

I have a hard time with women. My Mom has been a b**** to me my entire life, she is never not a b****. She is worse than a b****, 24/7. So women just scare the s*** out of me. Now, on top of it all, women are so demeaning and rude and disrespectful and gross as f***.

I watch like too much p*** probably is the issue.

There are so many f****** problems I don’t even know how to present this in a coherent manner, and part of my issue is the fact that I can’t explain things in a coherent manner in general. Like that part of my brain stopped functioning after I didn’t eat well for a very long time and just starved and didn’t do anything besides sit in my room and lay down and j******* and tap naps.

I also got injured and now my body has been…

There are so many issues, but I try to stick to this one I guess.

Anyways, so I’m basically a virgin. I’m 35. There is like no way for me to proceed in life.

Like I don’t have friends.

My brain is overheating even typing this so I think I have to stop now.