I recently found modelling photos of myself when I was 16. I was slender, with clear, porcelain skin, an innocent face, long brown hair – I was the epitomy of the young girl next door. I had never drunk, never had s** nor taken drugs. I’m now almost 31 and when I found them I cried. I looked in the mirror and realised I was the opposite. My skin was ruddy, my hair shorter and blonde with roots, awful fake tan, my body tired and chubby, and I’d done all those three things and ended up in the adult industry. So I dyed my hair back to brunette, washed off the fake tan, stopped partying and made a choice to get fit, and quit the adult industry. I’m going to become that little girl again because she needs me, and I need her. I want to feel innocent again. 🙁