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I am so in love with my married colleague. I have never felt anything like this before. We don’t even flirt. We talk and email constantly for work and it has never crossed the line. But there is just this electricity between us. It is so powerful I feel like I’m buzzing anytime I get close to him. I often avoid eye contact, but sometimes when our eyes meet I feel like my heart is going to burst. It is crazy. I really just wish it would stop but we have to work together. I know that he feels it too and I know neither of us will ever say or do anything. It’s like we have both discussed all of this without saying a word. The closest we ever got to acknowledging this is when he wrote me an email about a new hire and wrote ‘chemistry is key’. I feel like this chemistry is blowing me apart. What can I do?

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