its 2 am on march 30 2014 i really like this girl. ALOT. her name is chanel, and iv had feelings for her for a couple weeks now and have been texting and

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its 2 am on march 30 2014
i really like this girl. ALOT. her name is chanel, and iv had feelings for her for a couple weeks now and have been texting and (a little bit) talking to her for a few weeks as well, and i was going to ask her out tomorow over coffee but when i asked if she wanted to go out for said coffee she couldnt cuz her mom does not want her with boys even though she is 15. i think this is due to some family sheeyit.
i would try to get over this, but the thing is life sucked until i started going for chanel and then i rose up higher than i had been in a long time when she said shed love to get coffee followed immidiatly by telling me that her mom would be upset if she went, thus bringing me down further than i was before i started.
i dont know if its actually cuz of her mom or if she dislikes me and sees it coming or what but im kinda suspecting the latter since she hasnt responded to any of my texts in over 24 hours even though i know she isnt busy. IT REALLY FUKIN S**** and im trying to find an exception to her moms rules and trying to find some way of making my self seem good enough and “worthy” but i cant think of any and IT SUX.
so now im writing about it on the internet at 2 am because i cant sleep due to thinking about her.
if its actually her, what did i do wrong? did i text to much? i tried not to pester her! did i go too far into the friend zone? was i not far enough into the friend zone? is she just busy and thats why she hasnt responded? did i come off as too desperate? I DONT FUKIN KNOW
godamit

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