The truth is I don’t think I can fall in love. I mean, I’ve come close a couple times but when things get too real, either I back out or the guy does the backing out for me. Like now, I really like this guy, I may even love him. But he has a girlfriend. I think he likes me but I know he’s getting tired of my “excuses”. Every time he asks to talk on the phone or skype, I say no or something is going on to where I really just can’t. And when I’m getting in my own way, I let him know. I let him know how nervous he makes me & how I don’t want him to find any reason to not like me anymore or as much as I like him. I think that’s actually what I’m doing by not wanting to get any closer to him. I really want to but I don’t want to mess this up because I really like him.