after 26 years apart from my ex-wife, i’m still in love with her and can’t move on. i even married again many years ago, but it didn’t take because, to be honest, my heart just wasn’t in it, though to be fair, i don’t think hers was either. i thought it would help me move on, but it didn’t help at all.
she remarried a couple years ago too, and i’m so jealous of him.
we stay in touch because the child we had together, and now our grandkids, and every time i see her or even a photo of her, i get so overwhelmed i just about lose it. i think about her on and off all day, i go to sleep thinking about her, i dream about her still loving me, i wake up thinking about her and wishing i could just stay in the dream.
if i could go back in time to anywhere in my life and change one thing, i’d go back and do whatever it takes to never lose her.
i don’t know if that makes me pathetic or just a hopeless romantic, or what, but it feels awful to live with this every day and know there’s nothing i can do about it.
