I’ve been stressed, depressed, and sleep deprived. I’ve stopped cutting though. I’ve been clean for almost a month now. I try my hardest every day to wake up and say to myself “Hey, today’s not gonna be that bad”. But it’s been bad. I get anxious and scared nervous. Bad things can still happen. The cutting relieved my stress, but now I’m just tired. I’ve started doing pot and painkillers a lot more often. I don’t wanna keep running away, but I’m too tired not to