Okay. well i think that I have a mixture of 2 eating disorders. I dont know if thats possible or if anyone can relate but its what im dealing with. I have been having Annorexic thoughts, emotions, and some actions. But ive also been showing simptoms of a Binge eating disorder. I have a VERY instense fear of gaining weight, I hate eating in public, I HAVE to know the amount of calories in everything I eat, lotss of exercise, I feel so fat and insecure all the time even though some would say im skinny, I hate myself after I eat anything. I starve myself at school, I give away my lunches most of the time. But when i get home and am home alone i loose control. I eat and eat and eat. Not crazy crazy amounts but more than I want to. I start by saying okay a little bit just to get me through the afternoon. I eat something little and then cant stop until im full. Then I workout a lot as an effort to undo what I just ate. I weigh myself and measure my waist and stomach. I record in a book how many calories i burned, how long i worked out, etc. I dont know how much longer I can deal with this. Feeling crappy about myself 24/7. I am a perfectionist and when I dont meet my goals its not good. I dont know what to do but I just needed to confess. I am 5’6 and I weigh 112-113lbs. Im not happy with my weight or how I look at all. Im only 14 years old. Blonde. Cheer Captain at my school. Divorced parents. I feel pressure to be perfect all the time. Im a mess and i dont know what to do. please keep hate to yourself its the last thing i need.