I thought you were another of my small(short) time crushes like many others. 9 yrs passed since we have known each other from college. I married a guy I thought who is simple in means of life. It eats me everyday to think what I missed for him.
I should have told you long back (in college itself) that even though we have been best friends all these yrs, I loved you. I wanted to see you happy and let the rest didnt matter. When you shared all your interests for the girl who didnt care much about you. I wanted to see you happy when you cried back and said “I should have married you instead of someone else”. I lied saying that I am happy with mu husband.
I dreamt today of us getting back together today. not in the past old days. but As we are in our lives now. as a wife who left her husband for you. and you as someone who didnt care about what the orthodox society around you would treat us both because we got together.
I found comfort in your hug. It was purely anything but physical pleasure.
Why cannot we get back together as we are now? I am expecting a girl and yet I think of treating you as her loving dad than my husband who seems to have no clue whats eating me from inside all this while.
Why cannot we just express to each other truly what we feel and see what happens then?
