I am so anxious… I go to court on Tuesday to get sole physical and legal custody of my youngest daughter…yet I am so terrified that instead they will take her away from…nothing that I’ve done…I have done nothing wrong. I’ve taken her to all of her dr appointments, taken her to the ER when needed, fed her, clothed her…
My “husband” if that’s what you can call him…is making me out to be this monster because all I’ve ever done is support “our” family since day one… he’s trying to make it seem that since I got fed up and left the marriage — after he kicked my happy a** out of the house — and started messing around – that that makes me a bad mother — yet — he’s the one who after kicking me out immediately moved in with another woman of whom he’s still with… he’s 15 grand behind on child support for his other 3 kids… and I don’t even get child support – but instead of supporting his kids – he’s supporting this w**** and her kid – of whom he’s probably molesting as well…with all of this…why am I so scared and anxious that they are going to take her away from me… I’ve seriously done nothing neglectful or wrong… 🙁 He’s holding it over my head that I’m in therapy – I’m in therapy because all he ever did was emotionally and mentally abuse me – tell me how horrible I was – how I was a pathetic excuse for a wife and mother – how I was an incompetent nurse – enough so that I believed him and was fired from several jobs because of it… now I know that I’m not incompetent in my career field and I’m happy and I’m in love with myself…but why should be getting help be held over my head… 🙁 I’m just so lost and have no one to talk to because every one is so damn judgemental… yes I work 3 jobs and go to school – but guess what – I work 2 of those jobs when I don’t have my kids and I go to school on days I don’t have my kids – and if I do – it’s 1 day…right now I have 50/50 but praying for full…I’m scared for her safety and I’m being told I’m a liar and naive…that he would never hurt my child… 🙁 I’m so lost….