I think im the cause of my moms issues, and drama in my old friends group. Like I always stress my mom out cause she calls me lazy and I never help her out and then I hurt her feelings and I don’t understand how and now she is an alcoholic cause of me and her newer divorce. And then in my old friend group I messed with my close guy friends andh is partnered threatened to f****** unalive me basically. And I’m on the verge of killing my self too so to that one guy Payton that told me to kill my self after a play, f*** you.