To my fellow discord friend whom i know for a year and keep being in touch with.

I understand that I am egoistic mess here but I cant stop the desire to kill you. You surely have done nothing wrong on your side but i wish you could understand how f****** blunt or distant you are. Of course you had gone through trauma and there would be something to sympathise with. But the way how you’re publicly proclaiming how lowly you are, the way how you could not handle yourself despite being 20, it is just plain sad to see you living. I know in which city you live and probably could free you from this misery you call life.

However, i just know for a fact I am the insecure person here too. I know i have been hellishly blunt in out convos(or i think i was). I sometimes get ahead of myself and think i can take the position of fun leader. I just feel like i will be the average insecure dude rather than seen as someone who would have actual personality.