I have been married for 13 years. I’ve known my husband for 15 years. We have two beautiful daughters together . I have been faithful to him all this time . About a month ago I accidentally came across this site about married dating. It caught my eye and I was curious . Things at home had fallen into a rut. We’ve been wrapped up in the daily grind of everyday life . Bills, kids , chores , financial strain. . My husband hasn’t taken me out on a date alone in about 10 years. Whenever we do go out as a family there are always restrictions on what we can do and what we can or can’t order at a restaurant . It makes the night out not worth going to at all. After years of this, I started to become frustrated and bored. I didn’t feel like a desire able or s*** wife. It began to feel as though I’m married to a brother instead of a husband . He used to try to do little things to surprise me and always keep himself looking attractive for me . Now it’s become as if he deliberately finds the oldest and most unattractive clothes possible when we go out of the house together . He claims he dresses like that because he gives all his money to me and the kids . This just makes me feel worse. He acts like a martyr. He also has put on so much weight that his once handsome features are now distorted and not recognize able . All of these things have contributed to me not feeling attracted to him . Anyway, back to the married dating site. Out of curiosity I clicked on it. There were pictures and profiles of other married people on there . Many of them were in similar situations as me. I set up a profile of my own with pictures. I wanted to see if I was still attractive to other men. This originally started off as a confidence booster. Before I knew it I was getting tons of messages in my inbox. Men in my situation were messaging me and sending me pics. I began chatting with some through texts and emails. I was excited to talk with different people and get compliments once again I hadn’t flirted in a long time and it felt awesome! Then it happened . There was one mans profile and photos that I felt extremely drawn to. He liked the same things I did . He shared many of the same interests . His marriage lacked passion just like mine. We began to chat privately . It was so easy to talk to him . We chatted daily and often throughout the day . We agreed to meet a few weeks ago in a local mall. The moment we saw each other face to face there was an instant spark! I felt electricity shoot through my body . My legs felt weak and I got butterflies in my stomach . I saw that he felt something too. As soon as our meeting was over he texted the word WOW! I thought about him for the rest of the day . We made plans to see each other again the next day. This time we met for coffee. We talked for over an hour and went for a walk together . Neither one of us could stay out long because our families were home waiting for us. He walked me to my car and he kissed me! I had such a passionate kiss. I haven’t been kissed like that in all the years I was married! His lips were perfect. His tongue felt so good as it touched against mine in such a tender but s*** way . I knew I was in trouble. I could see myself getting more hooked on him . I felt so alive inside. It was as if a part of me that had been in a coma had been instantly awoken. I now realized how much my marriage was lacking. I was missing the passion, wild attraction, and emotional connection. We saw each other again after that for a lunch date and had an amazing time. We made out in his car like two teenagers on a date! It was so s***. He asked me to go on a real date with him that Friday night. I made this big elaborate lie in order to get out of my house on a weekend night. He met me in the parking lot of a local Target and I parked my car there and got into his. He took me to an amazing restaurant that I couldn’t even dream of going with my husband . We had drinks in this beautiful upscale bat. He soared no expense and made me feel like a queen. We talked easily and I felt so relaxed in his company. He’s intelligent , well traveled, cultured, and wealthy . He loves a lot of the same music as I do and he enjoys trying different types of cuisine as I do. He enjoys shopping which is so unusual for a man but happens to be one of my favorite past times . When the night was over, he drove me to my car . We made out again. This time it got more intense . We caressed and touched each other in a more intimate way. All the while he was so gentle and loving to me. We looked into each other’s eyes and I thought I’d melt. The chemistry was electrifying. We didn’t have s** but I felt so connected with him . I thought of him the whole night even though my husband was next to me. My mind kept going to our night. I thought of his hair in my hands and his beautiful skin when I touched his face. The way his eyes looked when he looked into mine. I couldn’t sleep . This week I went to his house when I got out of work early. He works from home and is always free during the day. When I got there, he sat down with me on his couch. We talked and then began to kiss. The kissing turned to making out and he took me by the hand and led me to his bedroom. We kissed some more and he laid me down on his bed. One thing led to another and we started to undress each other. My heart was pounding ! I thought I would pass out from excitement . His touch felt beautiful against my skin. I loved the way his bare chest felt against mine. We caressed and kissed as he got on top of me. I unbuckled his belt and pulled down his zipper . He felt amazing I my hands. He was hard and warm in my hands. He was very well endowed and his body was absolutely beautiful ! I was enthralled by him. He kissed my breasts and worked his way down my stomach. I was bursting with excitement . I thought I was going to have an o***** before anything even happened . Our kisses were more and more passionate and he started to touch me between my thighs. His fingers touched me so lovingly and passionately . He caressed my c*** and made me moan . I was so turned on. He put his fingers deep inside me and almost instantly made me orga . It was pure ecstasy . I had never had that in 15 years I know my husband . After doing this to me for awhile he spread me open and climbed on top of me. His p**** felt like a rock and it filled me up so perfectly. We continued to have the most amazing s** of my life! I never thought it could feel that way. I orgasmed about 6 more times that afternoon. He came inside me and we layed in each other’s arms. The connection was so incredible . We made love again today . I’m falling for him and he’s feeling that way too. I had to get this out . I want to keep seeing him even though I know it’s wrong. We are seeing each other more and more often. I don’t ever want to stop. This is my confession ????