im shaking as i have came to this conclusion. maybe this is the real me. the me ive been denying and hiding for months, even years. it happened two years ago but i denied it, like i was this good person. but im not, im a s***** f****** person. im mentally unstable and i hate myself. theres so much wrong with me, everytime theyv’ve left i just figured it was due to boredness. but i see it now, they made the right decision leaving. i am unworthy of attention, love, care, time, all of it.