He made me bleed T-T He’s big, maybe too big. He always wants to do it on his time and when he wants to go I better be ready.. So I dress up for him and get in place. He shows up, doesn’t try to warm me up that much and just starts going for it. I’m always wet for him but on the rare occasion that i’m not, it doesn’t matter to him. He’ll still go. Well today I was really tired but still had to get ready. I get to the spare house, and try to make an excuse that the air wasn’t working properly.. ‘Not an issue, get undressed.’ So i’m sleepy, hot, and just not super excited to do it. He takes my clothes off and goes for it, huge and hard and vigorous. And even though I wasn’t exactly ‘prepared’, he still fucks me so good. but because I wasn’t ‘prepared’ it was kind of painful. but that happens. We finish, and I wipe to see that i’m bleeding. So i’m going to need a break for a while plz.
The thing is he gets so upset when I don’t respond to him fast enough or when I put off seeing him. He called me one day so angry when I didn’t respond to his messages – ‘wtf WHERE ARE YOU?'(he always wants to know where I am) he wanted to meet up but I was with a gf, and he kept telling me to get rid of her, so we had to cut our meeting short so that I could see him.
He’ll playfully ask what I say about him to my friends, and asks who I hang out with. He’ll ask for nudes and ask to take pics and videos while we do it. Which can be fun but I have no idea if he’s truly deleting them or not… So I don’t let him do that so much. I mean he says that he is deleting them because he doesn’t want to risk getting caught but… idk. Still makes me uneasy knowing that he MAY have something really incriminating against me. And in my position? F***. I honestly think he wants them to keep me in place. . .
At first I thought he was so handsome charming and cute. . . Now I’m writing this thinking, what did I get myself into

The horndog in me is excited, but the level-headed me is confused.