Dear dad, It wasn’t cool when you mentioned what I said in the car about my step brother not being home in front of his gf. There was a reason I said it in a nagging voice, I was being sarcastic. I didn’t need her comment, “what is she his mother?” God I wish she could shut up for 2 seconds, she so full of herself. What’s worse is you made it seem like I had a crush on him. 1st off EWWW, 2nd he’s my step brother, 3rd he’s twice my age, he’s a complete a******. And that’s another thing, the fact that I put up with all of their crap: Him, his soon to be wife, and the woman you married. As if she wasn’t enough already. They think they know everything and can talk about who ever they want. It makes me sick when your wife talks about my aunt(your only sister) and you don’t stand up for her. It makes me sad when my step brother starts ragging on me about my beliefs and you don’t do anything until I start to cry. It hurts me when I really want something and you tell me to wait but meanwhile your wife gets what ever she wants when she wants it. It hurt me when your wife would talk down to me mock me when she thinks I said something stupid. What makes it worse is when I try to talk about how I feel and what I don’t like they want a time, date, and quote of what they said. I want my step brother to stop with the Christian jokes, I told you about that already but you said that was because he’s had bad experiences with Christians in the past. Well you know what I don’t care about the experiences he’s had in the past! He needs to stop talking! And so does his gf, she’s a f****** pain in the a**. I swear to f*** the woman is impossible to please, just sit your a** down and enjoy the f****** show alright, yeah cartoons were funnier when you growing up but the some new ones are not that bad. She thinks the Amazing World of Gumball isn’t funny WTH? It’s always gotta be “My brain cells are dying” STFU. But I put up with it. I’m not scared of a lot of things. I only have 4 fears. Bugs that won’t die no matter how many times you step on them or that nightmare I had were Stewie was trying to kill me and wouldn’t die. People that refuse to listen or can’t hear me no matter how loud I scream. Bugs that fall on me, and my last fear is the worst out of them all. When tio died I didn’t cry a lot. And when grandpa died I didn’t cry at all. But there’s one person I cry over all the time. I can’t even think about it without getting emotional. Dad you’re not even dead or dying but I mourn your death almost every day. My greatest fear is losing you, my greatest fear is if when I’m in heaven I won’t find you, but I know I’ll be happy with and without you because there’s no sadness there. It hurts me to think that if the rapture comes I’ll be gone an you won’t be able to find me. I’ve tried telling you this over and over, God doesn’t tally our good deeds. They don’t get us into heaven, what we do wrong here we pay for here. I told you already. And It hurts me so much to see you walk away, I don’t ever want you to leave me. For now I’ll just pretend nothing’s wrong, I guess I’m just like you.
-I love you daddy
