My head is pounding. I feel like I’m dying. I have never felt a sadness like this before. I knew that eventually I will be okay, but right now I don’t feel that I can be. I feel like curling up under a rock for days away from the world, avoiding everyone and everything and any sort of emotion. I wish I was a heartless person sometimes, because having a heart is just too hard sometimes. I love him, but I am leaving him, and the thing that hurts me most is that we will no longer make new memories. After tomorrow, I will not be able to hold his hand. I will not be able to hug him tightly. I will not feel his sweet tender kisses. I will not feel his warm embrace protecting me. I will not have him in my life. I want him in my life. I want him to be my friend. I don’t want to walk away from each other like we are strangers and have never known each other. I don’t want to forget all of the wonderful moments we had. I don’t want to leave this love as only a memory. I am afraid because I know things will never be the same. I love you, I love you with all that I am, and a part of me will always love you, my first love. Please don’t forget me. Don’t forget us.
