I’m an eighteen year old college freshman.
This New Year’s I visited my best friend, who was staying at her cousin’s. We all got pretty drunk together; I had assumed it was safe to drink because his parents were home and my best friend was present.
Two of the cousin’s friends came over later and we all got drunk together. These four had all gotten drunk together the night before, and nothing had happened–they had gone to bed as normal. So again, I thought it was fine.
I remember only up until talking to one of his friend’s. After that my memory is blank. When I woke up, I was in the guest room, and assumed nothing had happened. But I hurt.
My friend came stumbling in and lied down next to me, and asked how I was feeling, looking quite sad. I responded that I didn’t remember anything because I blacked out, and she looked shocked.
Turns out her cousin raped me. She tried to stop it but his friends held her back.
I lost my virginity and I don’t even remember it. Yet I’m still so afraid of him.
