My first friend’s dad committed suicide when i was 8 and she was 12. We were both devestated obviously, but i didn’t know how to handle greif or death because i was only 8, she however started self harm. I didn’t know what this was, but she’d always show it to me and tell me to make her laugh, or make her feel better or she’d do it again.
Now I use comedy to cope with things. She really fucked me up.
Earlier this year, she told me that “he probably never even cared for you you spoiled p************.” that hurt me. a lot.