I pray for death every day. Everything has gone wrong. I have health issues that effect my executive functions. Things that are easy for others are so hard for me. I have ruined my credit, never allowed myself to have a relationship, due to Catholic guilt, and parents who were religious fanatics. I have no one to help me figure things out. I’m alone. I’m tired of being alone, but I’ve lost my touch making friends. My neediness drove people away. I keep making mistakes. I don’t know how to resolve my issues. I work, but it’s not enough to resolve my finances and make my credit better. I have so much going on. I don’t let anyone know what’s going on. To the outside world, all is ok. I’m so tired of being alone an unable to resolve my problems. I need a financial miracle.