I’ve begged to be homeschooled this year and i slacked off this whole year been crying this whole time cause I’m such a failure, and only have 3 months to finish a whole year of school… I want to kill myself for being such an idiot.. I cant handle the guilt of my parents .. Saying i told you so… I feel like if they just hint it that i’m a failure i’ll throw myself off a cliff.

I was an above average student in my unhomeschooled life and now i feel like such an idiot. This week i’ve finished a whole subject… But i still feel like such a useless failure…
I cant handle the pressure im sure if i dont finish by the 3 months i’ll kill myself.

And with my extremely, strict, annoyingly ‘perfect’ at everything ironically asian family. i never last the judgement in my life.