I hate myself. I can’t stand how awful I am. I’m insensitive, unfunny, unattractive, and most of all a complete prick. I don’t know how people put up with me at this point. Sometimes I look in the mirror and wish I was never born. I’m pretty sure my parents feel the same way as my father has never even attempted to meet me in my entire life(I don’t even know his name) and my mother and I have drifted apart to the point of talking on very rare occasions. Sometimes rants like this help me feel a bit better, but in the end I’ll just wake up the next morning without any motivation to live anymore. Honestly I think of suicide sometimes just for the sake of making others lives a bit better instead of just dragging them into my sociopathic lifestyle.