This is gonna sound really weird and it is but im really looking forward to being all alone in my life.not having anyone in my life (friends, lovers,family,etc)excites me for some reason. Its gonna happen eventually and the thought of that makes me really joyful. Idk why this excites me soo much but i cant help it.(i do love my parents though). Not having anyone there for me sounds great(even though it shouldnt)