I’m in a relationship with an amazing woman, but i cant stop thinking about my ex and the hurt and pain i caused her. we were together for 7 years in total. the first time was for just a year then we seperated for reason beond our control but then a year later we got back together again and it was amazing. but me being an idiot started to find faults with the relationship and i became cold towards her and very distant. I didnt cheat on her or treat her in anyway wrong, i just drifted away. she would tell me how much she loved me and how much i meant to her but it got to the point where i couldnt say it back to her. she is a beautiful, loyal and wonderful woman and i broke her heart. she emailed me to say how hurt she was and all i could do was say sorry but not actually give her any reason to why i brushed her away. the truth is i dont know myself why i did. 12 months after we split and i still feel pain for her hurt and i often fall asleep at night close to tears.