I’m 14 and have done the unspeakable. At my school you always discovered things eventually, but not this. This was always such a horrible thing and I feel awful for doing this. I shouldn’t. It’s dirty and (in my mind and because of how I was raised) sinful. It’s m***********. I’ve been doing it for almost a year… I have tried to stop, I really have. But it’s like a drug and I hate it. When I do it I think about everything, the feeling, the guilt, what my family would think if they found out, why I’m even doing this. But it’s too late. By the time I’ve decided I shouldn’t do it, I’ve done it. I don’t know what to do… It’s such horrible feeling, going through my day, knowing I have a secret I won’t dear to tell. I just want to be a kid and this doesn’t make me feel like a kid. But I can’t stop.

ALL I KNOW IS I NEED SERIOUS HELP.