I’ve made a huge mistake and I cannot turn back time or I would take back that night I let my true feelings for him out. Now I feel like the b*** of a joke. Why is it he took year after year seducing me and when I give in he humiliates me? It’s his big game in life, a sick sport or hobby for him. He will continue to keep chasing something and will never ever find what he is looking for . He will be all alone. I am erasing him from my life and will not waste anymore time trying to figure him out. He used to make me feel so good and now he makes me feel so bad.