depression. what is it? it’s this feeling that you’re not wanted around. the feeling that you’re not loved. you’re angry. then all of the sudden, you’re the bad guy. that’s what depression is. depression drives you to do a lot of stupid s***. depression is one of the worst things a person can get. people will joke about it and say oh i’ma kill myself cause i’m depressed. and we all laugh about it. till one day when a kid says and does it, we talk about it maybe a week. then. it’s in the past. not to me. when i hear about somebody committing suicide, it sticks with me. i went through it. i’m still going through it. but i’m starting to see the light in life. and i’m only 21. life is full of obstacle courses. and it’s crazy. you know. we’re taught bottling up our feelings and just put them to aside and never to deal with it. you can’t do that. that’s gonna comeback and it’s gonna hit you hard as s***. and it hurts. then you turn to overdosing or pulling the trigger. i too have went through something like that. and it’s hard. this is my story. from my 3 best friends. i told myself i would never go down that path. i made sure that they were happy. they went off and started life. and i’m proud of them. i’m so f****** proud of them. i went down that path. cause i honestly thought that they didn’t need me anymore. my family is happy. my life here is completed. time to go. whoever was watching over me that night told me it wasn’t time to go. i got the help i needed. i surrounded myself with good people. people i strive to be like. i honestly don’t really know why i even tried. to this day i hate myself for it. every time i see my mom and we laugh, it’s this amazing feeling. every time i see my dad and we cut up and be dumb and just be boys, it’s this amazing feeling. i really thought pills were more than important than family and friends. and i really tried to let them take me away from family and friends. i am proud of the person i have became since then. my intake on my life. everything about me has changed. but yet i hear kids, adults committing suicide. imagine what those peoples families go through. knowing that they won’t be there for christmas, thanksgiving, birthdays, graduation. it s****. it f****** s****. i hate that. so. that’s why im here. that’s my reason. the reason why i am here is to help people. if people can take time out of their day and talk to me about what’s going on with them, i will take time outta my day to make sure they have somebody they can count on. that’s why i always be telling people im here for them. cause i truly do mean it. im here for you. if you need a ear, ill give you two. i want you here. i want you to be happy. i want you to succeed in life. i want you to get a job. i want you to get married. i want you to have kids. i want you to be happy with your life. i’m standing up. and telling my story. so other people can tell their story. their story matters. whatever it is. it’s important. if everybody stands up, we can take down depression. together. i believe in us. put our b******* to the side. suicide isn’t the damn answer. i want you to fight this battle. i’m here for you. we can fight it together. i believe in change. i believe that every single soul on this earth deserves to be happy. i have to thank the people that’s been by my side since the incident. `i am thankful for everything they have taught me. I’m turning something so negative into something positive. something that helps other people and help myself in the process. i understand that suicide is a touchy subject. but it needs to talked about. we are losing people, loved ones to depression. that’s why I’m here. that’s why I’m doing this. that’s why I’m gonna make the change. I’m tired of seeing suicide on the news. its a problem that nobody is talking about. we only talk about it when it happens. that’s not how it should be. all it takes one person to stand up and tell their story. then other people start standing up. to everybody who is dealing with depression or whatever you’re going through, i believe in you. i believe you can make it out on the other side. you can come out and be a better person. there is so much to life than committing suicide. my inspiration is Vic Blends. he is a barber. but he goes around and he gives free haircuts to people and talks to them. inspires them. and that’s what i wanna be like. i want to inspire somebody. i want to talk to somebody and give them the best advice and maybe one day they can spread the message on to somebody else. that’s how we start the change. together, everybody, we can beat depression. i believe we can. this is corny but you fail a lot of times before you reach success. i stand by that. we have to make mistakes in life. do not let that mistake bring you down. learn that mistake. turn it into success. take something negative and turn it into something positive. i promise you, the change will come. and it only takes one person.