I’m at a place where I know that some emotions I have are wrong so I am ashamed of them. Because I am ashamed of them, I can’t tell anyone about them. This makes me feel friendless; not because no one approaches me with an open heart, but because I approach everyone with a closed one. I live day by day, hiding this about myself. When I am interacting with a friend, and one of these emotions comes up, I suppress it instantly, but I think a part of it still shows. I see it in others too when they are interacting with me. Is this only a phenomenon of our generation? Because of this, I feel like I have no friends. I am plotting, alone. This is the battle of my age and I hope to overcome this one day.
