i’m sorry mom. i love you so much and i dont wanna hurt you or want to see you being hurted. but sometimes you just get on my nerves and everything just go out of control. sorry for breaking all those favorite dishes and accessories of yours. and sorry that i screamed at you. sorry that i asked you to go and die. i know how bad and hurtful you felt. but i couldn’t stop being mad at you at that time. that’s why s*** came out of my mouth. i’m sorry mom. i’m so sorry. i know that you are so much in pain seeing me walk away without even looking at you. ignoring you. sorry mom. i’m so very sorry.
my mom and i fought before 1 week. and i screamed at her so badly. i shouted at her saying “just go and die. i dont want you to live”. i’m such a b****. she just looked at me shocked and hurted hearing me say that. i was totally out of control. i broke all those things in the room. there was glasses and all broken. she just left the room crying. it’s been days i’ve called or talked to her. now i’m not even looking at her. i’m walking as if she doesn’t exist anywhere near me. and she just looks at me from the corner of her eyes peeking. she wants to talk to me. but her pride doesn’t allow. neither does mine. i love her so much. she’s a poor thing. now my dumbass brother fought with her. i heard from the room him swearing her badly. i wish to console her. but my pride wont let me do it. she was crying badly.
i feel bad for her. both her kids are swearing and hurting her. i dont know how can she bear it. it’s so painful. i feel so bad for her. i made her alone in this. all alone. poor thing. she was the only one who believed in me. now i let her go. i feel so bad god. i’m sorry mom. you know that i love you so much and i’d never let you go. but this. i cant help it. please forgive me.
i’m sorry for shouting at you. sorry that i hurted you. i know i cant take my words back but i love you and i didnt mean any of those shits i screamed out. i want you with me forever and ever and ever as my best mom. you are the only one who trusted in me. believed me. supported me. helped me. guided me. you gave me so much freedom. you were not just my mom. but my best friend ever. or the only friend i ever had. i love you mom… i love you more than anyone in this whole world. please forgive me.
i’m so proud to be born as your daughter. i love you mom. always will. until my last beat. forgive me. bless my mom jesus. i wanna stay with her forever. she will need me and i will be there for her.
please god, take this silence between us away. this is bad.