I really can’t stand not being the center of attention in a group of male friends. I know I shouldn’t, and it’s more of a subconscious thing, but I pretty much always see other girls as competition. It’s not like I’m actually interested in most of the boys, or want to date them or anything, but I constantly crave their attention. I always have to be the cutest/sweetest/best at whatever is going on or I feel really depressed, like I’m not good enough. Sometimes it doesn’t start out that way, and I genuinely like the other girl but I gradually start to resent her eventually. The only exception there’s ever been is my brother’s girlfriend, who I love dearly like a sister.