I’ve always considered myself gay. I have a boyfriend who I love with all my heart, and I’ve generally found men to be easier to work with in a romantic, emotional, and a s***** sense.

But lately I’ve kinda been curious about girls. Not in the sense of being straight or even bisexual for that matter, but just…curious. I wonder if I’d be able to show a girl affection the same way as I do with guys, and I wonder how far I’d be willing to go with them s*******. Maybe I’m just pansexual, I don’t know. It just feels kind of odd since this curiosity basically came out of nowhere.

The catch is, I tend to only find girls who look like guys attractive. Whether it’s short hair, a more masculine build, or more muscle, I tend to find those girls more attractive. I’m not a big fan of huge breasts or huge round asses or toned thighs like a lot of straight people tend to like about girls. Personally, I like it better if girls have a bit of extra weight on them to defy the average “feminine” figure.

What’s even more ironic is that I like guys who look like girls as well. Most people call them “traps”. Some look like boys just dressing in their sister’s clothes, and some just look like girls with dicks. I like that kind of thing on guys more than I do on girls.

My s******** is rather weird, I must say.
I don’t even know why I’m putting this on a confession website. I guess it’s half-guilt, half-curiosity.

I’m rambling now. I’ll stop.