When I was doing the relay for life, I cheated on my boyfriend with another man, he gave me a bj and that was it. After I came, I couldn’t reciprocate and I cried in the ten,t I also lied to him about sending n*** pictures to other people, and I know that was wrong, and I made mistakes, but eventually I stopped doing it, I also cammed with other guys, and after I did it I always felt guilty. WE broke up because he graduated and I sitll talk to him about a lot of stuff and hes in a hard time. Thats why I talk to to him, because even though we are not together, it matters that I help him. He self harms and drinks and I finally convinced him to go to behavioral health for his problems and that makes me very happy, he also always tells me that hes happy that I never cheated on him and everytime he tells me that I freak out and lie. But I know its for the better, because he’s very sensitive, and I know that if he knew it would absolutely cause him to snap emotionally and I shouldn’t let that happen. I don’t know why I have guilt I just do but I think I need to remember that I promised to never to do that to anyone again, and so far I have not and that’s good I think. I never plan on hurting someone like that again and I promise myself everyday that it’s good. He is slowly getting better and everyday I try to motivate him to move on and start feeling happy. My guilt stems from me not telling him, but if you weight the pros and cons of telling him, and the only pro is me feeling better, but jus tbecause he knows doesn’t mean it;s going to make it better, it oculd make it worse between us and I still want to be able to talk, that’s why I haven’t told him, and I don’t think I ever will, I don’t think that my mistake should define me, I think what should define me is that I knew better than to do that again and every day I try to move on.