i was in a joint family of psychiatric patient.s i was little and did’nt undesrtand. Child abuse occured adn i did not know what to say. horrifyingly i did not think it was wrong of someone close to me do what he did. i tried it on my own on someone who was not well and who coul’nt knwo . and i can’ t still confess. then school came and someone just told me about masterbation and i just tried it. and the guilt kept piling up. wheneve im upset i used to mastebate. and increasingly and regularly and then for no reason at all. and its a habbit. thinking of someone, any one and masterbating. and i can;’t get rid of it. and i still remember what i did as a child. no s** but it wasnt right. something close and with someone i should not have tried. someone who did not know not know then. s***. its still hard to confess